Tasty Thinking

Seeing as how food has such a significant role in my life, I'm surprised I haven't mentioned it sooner.  But I guess its prevalence disguised its urgency as a topic.  And as I regularly read a plethora of the food blogs out there, I figured there couldn't be much more I could contribute on the subject.

Being holed up in my room studying all day, however, with nothing to do but eat to break the monotony, has led to an observation of my independent living eating habits.  Living in a share house with easy access to a kitchen is definitely a step up from the microwave meals I was limited to in my dorm.  But living and cooking by myself has its limitations as well.  I go shopping every week and have worked out my produce essentials to a very estimated--yet quite commendable--science.  I'm restricted by perishable time constraints as well as price restrictions and quantity control.  I also have no working oven, very few kitchen tools, a limited array of spices to work with, and might I add, quite a sensitive palate to satisfy.  

And nothing short of a raw pepper will do.

I don't think my creativity has been exercised this much.  I'm continuously expanding my repertoire of dishes even though they've consistently been mediocre for the most part.  Hopefully this is only due to my lack of resources and not my lack of talent...

I've also noticed a few staple food items that I cannot do without, even though I never used to think much of them.  Peanut butter for one is probably one of the most versatile ingredients but always took a back seat to any other food pairing.  Bananas were a highly underrated fruit when I lived at home.  Oatmeal was a food that I usually opted out of eating on normal occasions.  And crackers were the last resort before a big grocery shopping trip was in order.  Now, I seem to eat these foods on a regular basis.  Almost to an unhealthy excess I think.  But I believe them only to be a temporary placation of comfort foods before I go home and engorge myself on all the salty, sweet, and fatty goods America has to offer.

Piece of Mind

At this point in our lives--these almost post-teenage years--I'd like to think we have it all figured out.  Maybe not our exact careers or dream house or future partner but we hopefully have some idea of where we'd like to see ourselves 5, 10, maybe even 20 years down the road.  Right now, we at least have direction in our lives.

But besides planning our futures, we've also been established by our past.  By now, we've developed a sense of ideals, values, and beliefs.  We've been shaped by our parents, friends, life experiences, and most importantly, had a chance to explore for ourselves.

Ironically, this sense of self-achievement is quite a naïve perspective.  We're not quite as malleable as we were in our middle school/pre-teenish years...remember how awkward that was?

Ooh let's not revisit that, shall we?

But for those of us that did managed to survive that segment of our lives without too many scars, we have emerged with a stronger sense of self.  And with every passing year that we've confirmed our identity, we become more and more confident in it.  Accompanied with this confidence, is a stubbornness that also increases with each subsequent year.  We become more resilient to change and opposing ideas since we've believed in our own for so long.  Sometimes only a significant event or an epiphany is sufficient to alter our perspectives once they've been ingrained into our subconscious.

At the moment, however, we're still young enough to remain open-minded.  We are just entering a critical stage in our lives that has the capability to close us off to the suggestion of change a few more years into our future. 

Why change though?  If we've been comfortable enough with our own beliefs until now, what would make us think otherwise?

As an example... until recently, I've more or less accepted the fact that what is illegal is bad.  Just labeling something as illegal is enough to create a stigma regardless of whether or not we consider it morally inappropriate.  There are reasons it has been made illegal and we've been conditioned to avoid it so I've never really stopped and reconsidered.  But when challenged about my so called "beliefs" in a specific aspect, I stumbled and seemed to lose footing in a reliance I've maintained for years.  It's discomforting and disheartening and can be likened to losing faith in a religion.  But like religion, many matters are not clear cut or set in stone.  We may encounter multiple philosophies throughout our lifetime and zero confirmations.  We may never alter one dogma no matter the circumstance and modify another on the slightest whim.  We ultimately shape our own thinking but it's a continuous work in progress.

All In a Night's Work

3:50 AM.  Pretty appropriate time to write, wouldn't you say?  Well it's either that or get wasted so I can make a ridiculous ruckus out in public.  And I was tempted to choose the latter but I figured plenty of people have perfected that role already so why bother?

In fact, besides the injuries, embarrassments, awkwardness, and just plain annoyances that these people induce directly, they're indirectly affecting us night owls detrimentally as well.  They cause security to be on edge as soon as the sun sets just because society simultaneously breaks out the booze.  They also make everything save for a McDonald's wrapper rolling by on the street seem suspicious.

Just a couple nights ago, I ventured on an innocent trip with a few friends to the supermarket at 2 something AM, only to partake in a series of uncomfortable encounters.  First off, there was the random drunk guy who approached acting like he knew us, then requested a photo with us, and finally got pissed off when we told him we were international students.  He then staggered off to rant about us to our poor other friend who we left all alone while we just pointed and laughed.  Once he escaped the drunk guy's clutches, we witnessed some hostile exchange as security confronted the guy and we bolted out of the produce area.  Soon minding our own business in the dairy section, a huge, half-bald-half-mowhawked brute comes out of nowhere demanding to know "who was making all the noise."

 Oh, and did I mention how hot he was?

I'm sorry but I never got the memo about laughing not being permitted in Woolworths after 11 PM.  But for fear of a crushed skull, it wasn't difficult to learn.

Even though I probably have the least to worry about when going out, I still feel as if I have to act as unsuspiciously as possible around any sort of security.  A little voice in my head just reminds me to "act natural" even though I have no idea what "natural" is supposed to mean at 2 AM.  Uh drunk and nauseous?

Ooh now I get it...

But no matter how much I complain, this is sadly the established and accepted norm of society.  It employs steroidal hunks of meat and provides them with a physical outlet for all that pent up childhood anger and neglect, so in a twisted kind of way, it works.

(and no, security is not on edge because darkness is also the opportune time for nonalcoholic criminal acts... don't be silly)

Ice, Ice, Baby

Classes are over and the "study" period has commenced... meaning I finally have time to write.  But before delving into the plethora of topics I've been intending to address these past few weeks, I must revisit a peculiar incident that occurred during lectures one day.

The unpredictable climate in the R1 lecture theater can be likened to Melbourne itself.  No ventilation over the weekend can lead to stuffy Monday mornings even before the rows fill up with 300 some students all breathing heavily over their whirring laptops.  But leave the doors open over night and we might as well be having the lecture out on the lawns.  Only rarely is the temperature actually "room."

So on one of these days, a friend turned and asked, "Is it cold in here, or is it just me?"  Quite a common question really and one that you never give much thought in asking or answering.  Normally the askee would nod in concurrence and agree that the air does seem quite chilly.  Then both parties would be rest assured that neither is shivering alone.

But in this particular case, I believed the temperature to be quite moderate and responded instead with, "Um no, I think it's just you."  Not exactly the response the asker had in mind, I'm sure, but it did add a nice touch of awkwardness in the air.  I did answer the question truthfully though.  And if no one really wants to hear the alternate response then why bother offering such options anyways?

People who ask about some observable feature in their environment and then end it with "or is it just me?" seem to be seeking to normalize their senses or own observations, which is completely understandable.  But just the way in which it is done seems silly.  What happens when the other person doesn't feel the same way or observe the same phenomenon?  Then the asker is left feeling unfulfilled and possibly crazy depending on the severity of the situation.

Another quirk in an established phrase used so often that it loses its absurdity.  Next time I'm shivering, I'll avoid the embarrassment with a simple, "hey are you cold?" ... "yeah, me neither."

Those Will Be the Best Memories

Freakin David Guetta & Kid Cudi...
I've had this topic on my mind for a while now.  Kind of touched on the subject in a previous post but finally taking the time out of my precious study session (hah) to write since it's been so appropriate as of late.

So there are a plethora of unwritten rules for really random situations from ordering soup from Soup Kitchen International to using a urinal (apparently).  No one explicitly talks about it but everyone just knows the protocol anyway.  So I was curious, is there a universal hook-up etiquette?

Let's start with the definition of a "hook-up."  I suppose it may vary slightly, but to my understanding, a hook-up can range from kissing to anything before fully having sex.  It must be spontaneous or irregular and include very minimal talking.  Personality exploration implies date.

There are 2 types of hook-ups.  The party hook-up (self-explanatory) and the fun buddy. Once the latter progresses to actual sex, they are no longer considered hook-ups.  They've moved into the eff buddy zone and that's a whole other ball park I'd prefer to steer clear from.

To state the obvious, the hook up tends to be assisted by alcohol.  It can last just one kiss, the entire night, or occur between multiple different people, depending on the sleaziness of the parties involved.

From what I can extrapolate from observation and experience, the night of the hook-up is pretty unreal.  All of a sudden you're kissing a random stranger and you're oddly okay with that.  In fact, you're more than okay with it.  You encourage it.  At least, for that night.  The aftermath is the most interesting part of a hook-up, I think.

It's quite easy for a hook-up to escalate to sex but both parties might not be okay with that which might make for an awkward situation.  Best policy is to state that explicitly I think.

So now if both people are on the same page... no sex, no strings attached, just lip action, then you're both in the clear.  That is the epitome of a good hook-up.  It's conveying that information that can get a little sticky.

If there does happen to be some probing...not that kind you sicko.  Personality probing...one or both people might want/expect the hook-up to elevate to the next level.  Cool if both do.  Crap if only one does.  Oh and double crap if you will see this person afterward on a regular basis.

Now we enter the weird chasing/avoidance stage.  Both people will be looking out for the other.  But while Person A will be hoping to see Person B, Person B will be looking to get the hell out Person A's peripherals.  Neither will approach the other and just let their thoughts form crazy assumptions.

So is that alcohol-induced night of amusement worth all the awkwardness and headache?  Personally, I just love awkwardness and ibuprofen.  But to make it easier on all of us, maybe we should establish some inherent rules.  Some might already be in place via common sense but I've noticed that most people are lacking a bit in that area.

Ceebs writing them now though.

Best Acquaintance Forever?

This is probably not the best time to be writing since I should be studying for my exam tomorrow morning but when has that ever stopped me right?  You can't really get much more bad-ass than this right here.

All procrastination aside, I really just need to present a complaint.

So facebook.  I love facebook.  You love facebook.  He/she/it loves facebook.  It's an undeniable truth.  We just can't get enough of its time-wasting, stalker-y, goodness.  Except for now.

As a compulsive facebook checker, I was just clicking through my normal routine -- scrollin down the news feed.  Then all of a sudden...pop.  An IM from an acquaintance I haven't seen/talked to in years.  Now normally I would embrace the opportunity to postpone my anatomy reading but I was actually looking forward to getting back to the 3 grades of ligament injury.  Plus, this acquaintance wasn't exactly someone I found particularly entertaining, as terrible as that sounds.

We begin with the normal "Hey!  How are you???" -- all the exaggerated punctuation marks included  (thank goodness genuine emotion can be easily concealed through the wonders of the interwebs).  She then proceeds to ask me about school so I respond with the whole Australia schpeal.  Then she hooks me into asking about her life (which I would have done out of courtesy anyway) by dropping the casual "I'm going to be switching schools too."  So I reply with the obligatory "oh really? where to?"

Now here's the part I was not prepared for.  She writes a lengthy paragraph on this crazy story about auditioning for this awesome music festival (which I've never heard of), then meeting some famous musician (who I've never heard of), and getting a full scholarship to this ivy league school (that I've never heard of).  Now don't get me wrong, it was clearly a ridiculous experience which I'm undermining by my sarcastic side comments.  But I really am happy for her.  It's just that after I commended her for this achievement, she said she had to go and then signed off.

The more I write about this event, the more I feel like an asshole.  But to get my point across, it just felt as if she contacted me to update me about her awesome life.  It was like a reminder saying, "Hey, remember me from high school?  You probably didn't think much of me then but here I am, doing great things.  You should be jealous.  And definitely not forget about me now."

So if that was the message, I received it loud and clear.  Obviously it made that much of an impact for me to stop everything and write about it.

And if not, then obviously I'm a jerk who just can't appreciate a brief, friendly chitchat.

This will make you think twice about ever IMing me again, eh?

Familiar Faces

When you're in a new setting with new names and new faces, the typical tendency would be to absorb as much as you can until things become more familiar.  You meet as many people as you can and befriend those you don't scare away.  Soon you have a reasonable group of friends or acquaintances.  But there are always those elusive few who you either see all the time and haven't actually met yet or never see (or notice) and thus, don't really know about.  Something about those familiar strangers -- maybe their abnormal height or really 80s glasses -- just captures your attention and makes noticing them unavoidable.

So in med, I'm always around the same 300 people.  And though I've made a fair few friends, there are obviously many more that I want to meet.  Here's an excerpt from a conversation I had with a guy I had seen around class but just met recently:

- "Hey what's your name?"

- "Jessica.  And yours?"

- "[random tall guy]. Wait, are you in med too?"

- "Yeah..."

- "Oh that's weird... how come I've never seen you around?"

Now I like to think that I'm a particularly observant person.  With an above average perception level perhaps.  Or at least that's what I tell myself to keep the tears away at night.

But even though it's kind of strange to actually hear that someone you've seen around quite often has never seen (or noticed) you, it's just reality.  What about all those other people you don't actually know about at the moment because you've never noticed them?  It is very likely that they're in the same situation.  Just make sure you don't let the guy who keeps calling your name know that you have absolutely no idea what his is.

Alright, that scenario really wasn't too bad.  Here's another one that involved a friend and a friend of said friend:

Friend: "Hey Jess, this is [random gay guy] and [random gay guy], this is Jess.  Have I introduced you two before?"

[SIMULTANEOUSLY] Me: "Yeah."   RGG: "No."

[awkward stare] Me: "...we met twice before this..."

RGG: "Oh really?  I don't remember..."

Usually I pretend we've never met before if the other person seems to have conveniently forgotten.  But after being introduced to each other twice, I foolishly assumed I would be somewhat imprinted in a person's memory.  It's alright though.  I'm highly observant.  I'm highly observant.  I'm highly observant.  Yeah... that's it.